My mind hasn't been clear for a little while and I was having a hard time sleeping. It was really affecting my writing, my mind going blank when I would try to think about it. Someone said it was writer's block, but I felt that it wasn't the only reason. I went to the doctor for my annual blood test and found out that my thyroid is out of whack again (I have hypothyroidism). Today, after about a week on my new pills, I am feeling a world of difference. I am not dragging throughout the day (I actually had to leave work one day I was so tired) and can look at my story without suffering from "numb brain".
I added a progress bar for Kin in the sidebar of the blog. I am hoping that things will keep moving along and it will be interesting to see where I am at as time goes on. Right now I am sitting at 52%. Realizing that I am in the middle also makes me think of hitting that mark where I am unsure about what I already wrote, contemplating going back. Why make an utter mess throughout the whole thing if I have to fix it now? I keep telling myself that I must keep moving forward or I will never get to the finish line.
I think the reason why this novel is especially difficult lies in the details of the culture and world that I am trying to create. Japanese culture is something that I am beginning to understand and I feel of terrible inaccuracies in the details. When we visit Japan in May, I am hoping that it will give me a badge of courage. I will be able to sense the world around me and take the experiences home with me. That is enough to have me drop everything now and get back to planning (when I am not writing!).